In The Name Of God

As a kid i had lot of eagerness to know and understand god, religion and all that. As i grew old i started knowing other religions like Muslim, Christian, Buddhism etc. etc..
More i try to understand more i get confused about existence, relevance, truth, and trust. I am a very religious man but now i don't think that i follow any religion. I am religious in my own way and this happened because of religious men from different religions. These religious men from different religions made me a INFIDEL. I don't believe in God of these people because i feel like if I see what they want me to see and i picture God as they paint I will be like a robot who does whatever its owner or programmer wants.

According to me these religious men, are those people who have nothing else but ambitions to make their name immortal in the pages of history, few good ideas, good communication skills, better convincing powers and a bunch of people.
I am just talking about a possibility, nothing for sure but I can bet you people this world would have been much better if these kind of people and their thoughts never existed....
What if there is no one to do any thing....... IN THE NAME OF GOD

Let us shift our focus towards history ,because it shows us how foolishly we followed The men of God and played with the blood of our own people. I did a close study and finally figured out that all the time we were busy in fighting wars. Our history is not a history of civilizations but a history of wars and killings, within a species. Historians gave us so many reasons of wars in pretty heavy words which are still difficult to understand like communism, socialism, imperialism, Nazism, Fascism, racism etc.When we go a little more deep,we find the main reason behind most of them were religions and superiority of civilization. May be sometimes these things doesn't seem to involve but they were directly or indirectly involved. For me it really doesn't matter who fought and who lead , what matters is whole humanity suffered and worse part of it is all this happened...... IN THE NAME OF GOD

Now when it comes to violence every one says that the religion they follow is nonviolent. I know for sure that there is no place for violence in any religion but then again rises a question " What is holy war or jihad or whatever others call it?" and " If there is nothing like violence then what was we were talking about previously?"Let me tell you again,the concept of violence was introduced in our religions by these so called men of God to hide their ambitions........ IN THE NAME OF GOD. They justify their deeds by saying that their religion never supported violence and they are completly nonviolent but their religion has a clause. A clause of self defence and they use violence or weapons only for self defence ,but history denies their justification of violence.Indeed everyone has right of self defence by any meanse but manipulating this fact and using it for personal gain is neither supported by any religion nor God will like it.These so called holy war should never have been a part of humanity..................................IN THE NAME OF GOD.